All of the time it is either me that is feeling like shit or someone close to me that is feeling like shit. We all have our bad days but it’s just crazy how life tricks you when you think everything is ok.
Oh Lord what do you want with an unholy demon like me?
I’m too broken to be the holy angel I’m meant to be
I try to be strong but I always fall in these sinful lies
I ask for forgiveness but why should you believe me with all my failed tries?
There’s a girl in the bathtub
Blood gushing from her wrists
There’s a boy on London Bridge
Watching the water flow on by
We’re only broken souls trying to find our way,
trying to find our way through the dark
Just put it away
Listen to what I say
Darling you’ll be ok
I know how you feel
Hope seems unreal
Feeling so alone
You’re forgotten in your own home
This life you cannot bare
And no one seems to care
You’re lost and so alone
No one even knows
Your left all on your own
The sensation, the beautiful sensation of the blade crossing your wrist. You do it once, you just fall into doing it again and again and again. If you don’t, you just feel awful, you just miss the blade too much. You feel depressed and feel the blade calling. It’s a release. You feel it’s the only release to whatever pain you are going through. You know it isn’t, it doesn’t help you, it makes you worse, but the temptation is just too great to follow what you know.
Life does bring so much pain
Life does make me feel so awful
Life just is so confusing and doesn’t make sense at times. I just forever get lost on this straight never ending road.
Things always seem to not go the way I planned. There is just so many things which I cannot count that make life hell. So many things I could blame God for.No matter what happens though, I will not curse God.