This is my story for thanksgiving. The meaning behind “Bus Friends”, everything I didn’t quite tell other than to my closest friends. If you are struggling with friendships or relationships, give this story a read. I hope it inspires you as out of everything I have written on my blog, this has just got to be one of the hardest things to write. That’s partly why I am putting it out here, because I do not want to write about it any more.
All the time it is either me that is feeling like shit or someone close to me that is feeling like shit. We all have our bad days but it’s just crazy how life tricks you when you think everything is ok.
I didn’t understand suicide or depression at all a few years ago and I didn’t even know about self harming or anything like that, though you can say, I was depressed on off all throughout growing up.
If you say you haven’t ever had an addiction, you know that it ain’t true. In life, we all will go through an addiction in some form or factor. You may not realise it, but I bet every single person reading this has an addiction or two.
It truly shocks me how people either don’t care about others struggling, or they simply are too scared to stand out from the crowd, and some will just laugh instead to make you struggle with life even more.
We will have our hearts broken more than once, we will have our hearts played with more than once. We likely will be cheated on more than once by another lover.
Yea, cheating and heart playing is not a very very forgiving thing, but at the end of the day, it’s their loss.
We will so many time have our hearts broken, and it will get harder every time. But don’t go guilt the person who dumped you or your friend or whatever. It’s their choice at the end of the day, so what right do you have to guilt someone for what is their choice?
Self harm really just isn’t understood. Some people think we want to self harm, think we want to die, think we have no hope in us.
Self harm is just like when you get the urge to lust, it’s just like when you get the urge to smoke (I don’t smoke but I understand what it’s like), or to have a drink/snack that you told yourself you aren’t going to have.
We all have scars, a history we cannot bear, but we need to put that behind us.
And we all get judged by something that cannot be changed, but we need to just ignore those judges.We constantly feel we aren’t good enough, and we lose courage, and hope and faith in simply what the truth is.
Others forever tear us down, even those that did it unintentionally and unknowingly, and it just hurts so so bad.
We lose those close to us often by emotions, and it just is so painful.
We constantly feel we aren’t good enough, and we lose courage, and hope and faith in simply what the truth is.