The sensation, the beautiful sensation of the blade crossing your wrist. You do it once, you just fall into doing it again and again and again. If you don’t, you just feel awful, you just miss the blade too much. You feel depressed and feel the blade calling. It’s a release. You feel it’s the only release to whatever pain you are going through. You know it isn’t, it doesn’t help you, it makes you worse, but the temptation is just too great to follow what you know.
Life does bring so much pain Life does make me feel so awful Life just is so confusing and doesn’t make sense at times. I just forever get lost on this straight never ending road. Things always seem to not go the way I planned. There is just so many things which I cannot count that make life hell. So many things I could blame God for.No matter what happens though, I will not curse God.